Friday was dedicated to my family. I was there when it opened to have the kids ride rides they only day they would be. Highlights were as follows:
Estefan rode the ROUND-UP 20 min. after eating!
he didnt throw up and begged to ride it again
he did!
My shoulders got tanned and a little red
My Mom, Pita and Oly were there to help me out
I enjoyed them SO much
I saw Estefan's Aunt Loni and Uncle Mark and their pretty little grand-boy
They are SO nice and don't even have to be!
Estella only wandered off in the small animals tent
she kept running back to the monkey!
She reminds me of the little monkey myself
I worked and watched all the Mutton Bustin'
I worked till one on Sunday with articles pertaining to the fair
UGH!
Let's back up to Sunday cause that was one *sigh* DAAAAYYY
went into vegas for a hair show
was back by 3:30
made the last Mutton Bustin at 5:30
Tommy made it to the fair!-not with me
had to find a sitter for tomorrow-super quick!
Then wrote until midnight
couldn't sleep until one since I had words/article in my head
Monday:
Had to be up by 5 to get the kids ready for the day
was on the rode to Vegas by 6:15
with wet hair and no make-up!
I like the hair modeling
150 buck cash
a cut you have NO control over
also make-up/wordrobe/nails/hair color-you have no control over
I got 100 bucks worth of hair products, ended up looking like I belong in vegas, and ended up with a hair cut I have named-JOAN JETT
can now add a new experiance to my top 3 most embarassing moments!
and it was caught on film!
it will also be published and distributed!
Got a call on the way home and Lois was dying
it was her sister, my MIL Linda's birthday
Spent 3 minutes at home and picked up kids and Tommy
went back to Vegas
hadn't eaten in 18 hrs!
slept for 5 hrs the night before
tired, hungry, and cranky and then guilty for feeling all the above
hate death
took kids and drove around/ate for 2 hours
didn't want the kids to see her dying
I didn't want to see her dying
Felt guilty and gave in
It was the most AWEFUL experience! I have a different view of dying
not death, but dying
She didn't struggle to stay alive
she struggled to die
she moaned, gurgled, and was sang to by family
the most beautiful scene
but I hated the suffering
suffering, suffering, suffering to die
I know what it means when they say "i'll be happy they're not suffering anymore"
I never imagined it would be that way
Drove home and was exhausted
could not sleep
Tommy woke and left to work at 2 a.m.
I couldn't sleep
dozed
phone rang at 3:30-was my MIL-Lois had passed
I feel so....I don't know, outta sorts. I felt outta sorts when Michael passed less than a year ago. I haven't been normal since and now again. My family-i don't consider them IL's. I have no family here anymore:( I miss them but I love Tommy's family like my own. They have helped fill the gap I've felt when all my family moved away. I feel so loved and fit right in with them. They have been gone too now and a new normal has settled among us all. A little shifting in family. I adjust to change well but.....I haven't. I want them all here and I want them all here again. I am feeling so selfish for this all-just so everyone can be happy again. I miss them all.
MIL:means mother in law
IL: mean in laws
I will also be posting pictures and such about the hair show at a later time
